julian casablancas

the first time i listened to 'you only live once' and watched that videoclip where they're playing in a white room, all dressed in white and it starts getting filled with black water, i was mesmerized. they look so cool, i thought.

the first time i read the lyrics to that song. i remember thinking: oh wow, it looks as if someone is reading my mind. i knew everything about him. he's a virgo. he's partly spanish partly danish. he was married. i kept imagining a life by his side. all that romantic shit i do when i fall for someone.

years later i see them play at lolapalooza and got really disappointed. terrible sound. he argued with the guitarrist, was wasted. mocked ayrton senna (although that part i didn't care much about, seriously)

it's been 4 years since that concert and today i woke up to the strokes. 'ill try anything once' is probably one of my all-time-favourite song. it's just perfect. it makes me wanna fall in love. (though i am in love right now) it makes me want that song to be 'our song' because it's again, SO ME. it's scary. it seems like a flow of thoughts i get in a morning like today. it's sweet and melancholic, like me sometimes.

truth is, what im saying here is that i believe in relationships like mine and julian's (LOL) - with continent big enough to allow for disappointment, and fun, and depth, and lack of it, and passion but calm as well. what can I do if i'll try anything once?

what can do if i'd be up for everything that will strip me of my beliefs and transform me?

i do get scared, as i am right now.

i do fear getting hurt. and i do get hurt more often than i wish i did.

but i would never not let my heart decide for what it really wants. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZdtxG6eszJg&list=RDZdtxG6eszJg&start_radio=1

When I said, "I can see me in your eyes"

You said, "I can see you in my bed"

That's not just friendship, that's romance, too

You like music we can dance to

Sit me down, shut me up

I'll calm down and I'll get along with you